Explanations...

Not that I have any readers for my blog...It's ok. I accept it....But I have not really been in the mood to blog this past week or so. First off...a high school friend of mine * his brother died. They were in a horrible car wreck where the car flipped 4 or 5 times & they were thrown from the car. If they'd been wearing their seatbelts, they would probably still be alive. My friend Adam was 20...his brother Andrew was 17. They both wore the #72 on our high school football team. Adam had a 2 or 3 year old son.

On top of that, my mom went into the hospital Tuesday. She had to have a partial hysterectomy. She had her uterus & one of her ovaries taken out. & she had to have her bladder tacked up where it's supposed to be. She's doing good, but she's hurting pretty bad. She's on morphine tablets & should get to come home sometime today. Gonna try to go see her tomorrow or sunday.

I found out yesterday ANOTHER friend of mine died. Eric was 19 or 20. He has a very young son. not even a year old yet if i'm not mistaken. He was riding a dirt bike around at 1 in the morning & got hit by a pickup truck.

I'm kinda tired of losing people I know. I've become almost numb to it, which makes me come across as a cold-hearted bitch. But really, it's just so exausting to get so upset over it over & over again. & I also dont say that they're in a better place. I don't know that. I don't know if people REALLY believed in God when they died.

To everyone I have know that has died, May you rest in peace. I love you...where ever you may be...

Bobby Lee Huff
Hershel Privitt
Molly Nelson
Adam Hughes
Andrew Hughes
Eric Veal
James Dalton

It's random tuesday people!!!

Technically, it's only Tuesday for about 10 more minutes, but I have been kinda busy today. Better late than never I guess. At any rate...let us get on with the random, shall we??

I hate when I wash towels, & I put them in the dryer for a full drying cycle, & when the dryer stops, they are still damp. =( That happened today.

Why is the majority of the buttons I have in my button jar this really fugly brown color? Why is the button industry so stingy with the pretty buttons? I promise I'll use them wisely, so quit hogging them.

I just want to point out one little fact. I have lived in Tennessee my whole life, & I moved to Alabama last October. When all my friends & family found out about this, they made all the jokes that I have heard about Alabama my ENTIRE life. Rednecks, cousin on cousin action, REALLY bad southern accents...but you know what?? Since I have lived here, I have not seen one redneck, not 5 headed kids due to incest, or heard one person call it Alabam-ER. That's something I cannot say about Tennessee. Take that all you teasers...HA HA HA!

Kool-aid singles have got to be the best thing EVER.

Also...my little sister Mia is pretty much the cutest thing ever. She wore my sunglasses on mother's day long enough for me to take a picture....

Precious much????

Also...I took a picture with my mommy...She's awesome too...

Like my photo editing??? I used piknik.com
You can use most of it for free.

Red Crayon + White Walls= >=(

Dear Bray,

While I am SO incredibly happy that you have a love for creating......

I would REALLY appreciate it if you didn't put your creations all over the walls of our apartment.

I spent HOURS scrubbing this off & now, our walls still have a reddish orange tint to them.

So next time you get the urge to color...find one of your MILLIONS of coloring books....

You're SUPPOSED to color in them, not on the wall.

You're stressing me out with your constant wall art. I don't think that Mr. Clean can produce enough Magic Erasers to clean all your drawings up. And the landlord is an idiot for painting the apartments here with the cheap paint that rubs off when you clean it.

Needless to say, I had a TON of fun cleaning this all up. >=(

In Anticipation Of Mother's Day

Oh, my dear child...I love him so much. The minute he came into this world, I fell for him. It is a strange feeling, having your heart OUTSIDE your body. But it's a wonderful feeling.

So what does it mean?? To be a mother. Hmmm. Well, first off, it means that the life you live is no longer for yourself; some women have some difficulty grasping this, but for me it was the easiest thing I've ever done. Your whole life changes.

At first, it's the pregnancy. If you drink or smoke (I never did), that's the first huge thing you change...(or SHOULD change rather...again, some people don't. Shame on them.) Your body changes so much, & you have this bond with this child that you have never met. But already, you love them. You would ALREADY die for them. You begin to change everything around in preparation for this child.

Then comes the big moment: Having the baby...becoming a mother. It is a very interesting time for the soon to be mother. You're poked, prodded, your lady parts are exposed to scores of strangers. In my case, having a C-section, I was shaved by a very manly women & then wheeled into the O.R., where I laid half naked infront what seemed like 50 people that we're just standing around. If it wasn't for the massive amount of pain killers,I would have probably been embarrassed. Yet, we women endure all of this. The pain, the *exposure*, the aftershock of the embarrassment. We take all of it, because we get our child in the end.

That beautiful baby. The first time you seem them, hold them, smell them. Words cannot touch on those first moments. It's the closest I've ever felt to God in my life. This child wasn't here a moment ago, & now, I have no recollection of my life before they came. It's amazing. You anticipate so many moments that you will have with your baby over the years. Their first steps, first words, first tooth, birthdays, all the wonderful things. And, if you are like me, you will cry.

Right now, I am in the toddler-almost preschool age with my son. I have had most of the moments that I imagined with him. We still have a lot of firsts to go though. And with the baby years mostly behind us with him, I realize that I miss them so much. But I love the child that he has turned out to be. Yes...in spite of the tantrums, coloring on the walls, yelling, slamming doors, & only wanting to eat apples and chicken nuggets...& probably a millon other things that I'm to tired to list right now....I think that he is the best son that a mom could ask for. Because aside from all the stressful things that he puts me through, I know that when I tuck him into bed that night...you will hug me, kiss me, and say in that sweet voice of his:

*I love you Mommy, Goodnight & Sweet Dreams.*

And that sentence alone, the one I hear everynight, brings a tear to my eye. I would lay my own life down for my son. I would kill, steal, lie, & even die for him. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, & in my opinion, he saved my life. & I hope that when he is grown, he is half as proud of me as I am of him.

Bordom. =/

My son is in the bedroom watching NickJr. Chase is zombied out in fromt of the tv playing Call of Duty Modern Warfare, & I'm sitting here bored as hell. So I guess you, poor little blog, get to hear all the random crap that goes through my head. Aren't you the lucky one?? =)



As I said yesterday, the pool has opened up for the season. (yay!!) & we went back today. Somehow, I managed to get sunburned on my left side...yes, ONLY my left side. Considerig the fact that the sun was directly above me, & that I didn't expose one side of my body more than the other, I am shocked. I hope that this will be like every other sunburn I've ever gotten & be nice & tan by morning. *fingers crossed*



Chupathingy The Mexican Lizard...=)



I should probably make a list of all the house work that I need to do tomorrow. I'm gonna try to get up early & clean so I don't have to miss out on pool time. (maybe I'll get the other half burned...make it even...)



The landlord was out at the pool today, & he was tanning. He literally laid out for like an hour, & then he jumped in. I always think that it's funny when a man lays out. I know that it's common, but still...it makes the 12 year old in me laugh. The Hungarian/Romanian women was out there too, (I can never remember which country she is actually from.) We all ended up talking about places we wanted to go to, & since I have never been on vacation, my list was a long one. =(
The landlord has been everywhere apparently. Ireland (my dream vacation), Germany, Italy,
basically everywhere that I've dreamed of going...he's been. Damn him.

I forgot to take my allergy meds today; haven't done that in a LONG time. Unfortunately, I didn't realize this until I was in the pool & Bray was having a grand ol' time splashing on the steps. Well, needless to say, I didn't tear the 3 year old away for the 5 minutes it would've taken for me to walk back to the apartment to take it. I would rather suffer my chronic & debilitating allergies than to rip him away from a rare moment of childhood stimulation that didn't involve a television. What ever happened to playing pretend anyway?? He does, actually, play by himself a lot. But he seems to want NickJr., or as he knows it, Noggin.

I don't know why they would just up & change it on him like that. It used to be : NickJr. presents Noggin!!! Now they've just dropped the Noggin title all together, & I don't like it. But I digress....

What was I talking about?? Ah, yes...allergies. Well, I finally took my allergy pill at about 6 p.m. That's when I realized that my neck was breaking out into hives. Hives are ALWAYS fun. They're gone, for the most part, now. Still kinda itchy, but not terrible. I wonder what allergy cause them this time tho. I wasn't around any cats. & there are no horses here. Pollen usually doesn't break me out. My luck, they are probably getting worse. I haven't gotten my allergy shots since October. (stupid alabama medicare)

*sigh* I guess I should go to sleep now. Especially if I plan on getting up early & cleaning....

My First Random Tuesday Thoughts!!!!

Ok, this is my first RTT. (incase you didn't get that from the title) & so far, I has been a very random week, & with all the thoughts that go through my head, I shouldn't have a problem with random-ness. Anyway...here we go...

You ever grab your phone the SECOND before it goes off?? That has happened to me a lot this week. The feeling that goes with that happening more than once is amazing. You know...that feeling of ESP?? Yeah...that's an amazing feeling.

We watched some scary movies over the weekend, & I don't really get SCARED, but after we go to bed, I get really paranoid. Sometimes when I get up in the middle of the night, & I see all the weird shadows, I get freaked out. My head says: "It COULD be the vacuum, BUUUT it could be a very short & awkwardly shaped ax murderer..."

I'm convinced that no REAL person talks to their dog or cat like the people in the pet food commercials.

There's a mini golf club on my porch, & I have no idea where it came from. We don't golf.

I was chatting with my gay friend on Facebook last night, & I had my Ipod on shuffle. All of a sudden, "I Kissed A Girl" came on & I got the hilarious image of him singing it. But then I got to thinking about it, a gay man CAN sing that song legitimatly. & that made me laugh.

I know that the bowl that I put in the microwave last night said *Not Microwave Safe* ( thanks to the ol man for pointing that out). But seriously, what could POSSIBLY happen?!?!? I can never find a microwave safe plastic bowl at the store, & it's not like I'm gonna return them to the store either. (I know that I CAN return them, but I feel weird returning them without a valid excuse. What am I gonna tell them?? They don't fit isn't an option. ) So unless putting them in the microwave is gonna set off an A-bomb like explosion...in the microwave they go...

Potty training is still going no where. That's stressful.

& the pool has finally opened up for the season. I'm going to go swim. Have a very random tuesday everyone!!!