Why hello.

Once again, I have neglected you...my poor poor little blog. I apologize.

Here's what I've been up too...

My son's birthday is coming up. I am SO excited about it! It's a pirate themed party. I ordered all the stuff & the last of it should be here Monday or Tuesday. (yay!) I'm making his cake by myself. It's one of my favorite parts of the party.

Chase & I are doing great. I love him more & more everyday. He finally admitted to me that he DOES want another baby (woo hoo!), but...he thinks that we should wait just a little bit longer to get pregnant. *sad face* I REALLY want a baby now. I am so pathetic desperate for a baby, that when I found some pink baby lotion today, I sat there for a good 15 minutes just smelling it & dreaming of babies.

Potty training is going pretty good. Bray is almost there. He will pee in the potty, & only has accidents in the morning right before or rigth after he wakes up. But he's still not going #2 in the potty. I will keep you posted on how training goes...

Have You Ever....

Have you ever taken a picture JUST to take a picture & it end up being beautiful?

Have you ever been incredibly lonely, even though there are people all around you?

(I hope not...it's not fun)

Have you ever watched the rain fall?? I mean REALLY watched it.

Have you ever found the PERFECT quote to a picture you just took.
{I have.}

Have you ever wanted to throw your brand new printer out the window because you couldn't get it to work??

(Only to find out you forgot to turn the *printer sharing* on, so you were the cause of your own stress)

Have you ever had to potty train a little boy?

(if no....you lucky bastard.)

Have you ever decided you wanted to learn a skill...& succeed?

Have you ever that you are crazy for wanting another child?

& finally...

Have you ever been down, but had a best friend that comforted you day or night,

no matter where you are or what she's doing?

Thank God that I do.

=)

Have you ever...

Well, This is my first *Have You Ever* post. Created by Momma at Live. Laugh. Pull Your Hair Out. It's an amazing idea & {to be honest} I'm a little jealous that I didn't think of it myself. But at least SOMEONE thought of it. =) Anyyyyywhoooo....here we go.

Have you ever thought it would be easier to get liposuction that ACTUALLY lose the weight?

& then decided it was more cost efficient {& probably less painful} to just suck it up & exercise?

Have you ever just held your child in your arms & thank God that you are lucky enough to have them in your life.

I have....often. =)

Have you ever watched a terrible movie all the way through, knowing it was bad in the beginning, just to appreciate the *good* movies better?

Have you ever thought about the Zombie Apocolypse seriously?

No? Well you should.

Have you ever considered yourself blessed to be in love with someone who makes you laugh ALL THE TIME?
Have you ever accidently hit a raccoon with a bag of garbage?

Have you ever had a raccoon hiss at you for accidently hitting it with a bag of garbage??

I have...Incidently..it's not that fun. Who'd have though??

Have you ever wondered if you're doing the right thing with your life?

Then realized that sitting there thinking about it isn't gonna change a thing?

Have you ever had your 3 year old son run around being a pirate all day?

(it's pretty awesome)

& finally...

Have you ever had someone who you called your hero?

My Papa.=)

Losing my tattoo virginity...

Welp...I haven't done a RTT in a while. So here I am! I have gotten back into my workout routine, house cleaning routine, & *fingers crosses* Blog routine!!!!

So, Monday is the *big* 2-1!!! (not that 21 is all that big...) & I am excited! Not for Monday, but for this coming SATURDAY!!! You see that is when we are celebrating. I am getting my first tattoo. Or as I like to put it...Losing my tattoo virginity. I can't wait.

I have this friend that is SUPER nice, & we usually have very funny conversations, but he can't take a hint when I want to quit texting. (don't you hate that?) Like, I wont reply & he'll send another...UGH! I should let the inner bitch in me come out & just be like: LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!! But it's one of the only friendships that I have...I think I'll just have to deal with his obssesive texting.

Cheezit's are addictive.

My son has inherited his dad & my crazy antics...for example, we are in subway with my friend Melanie & I ask him to smile, well...this is what I get....

I know...right??

Repotted my cactus...THAT sucks. No matter what kind of gloves you have one, you still get stabbed. & it still hurts. Damn cactus.

Also, I bought a NEW flower (As if i needed anymore plants) from Walmart last Thursday, & I couldn't figure out how to pronounce the name of it. So I look up the *Old Gardener Lady* term for it...guess what it was??? Come on....guess....ok...give up?? Cockscomb!!!! Bahahahahahaha! Yes, I am laughing at the name...because where I am old enough to know that it is immature to laugh at words like weiner & booby, &...*sincker* COCKScomb...I am still young enough to not care. =D

Well that's it for this RTT. Steal the *button* & get on with your random self!!!

*Le Sigh*

Once again, I would like to apologize to you, my poor blog. =( I feel as if you need more attention. Not that I am writing to anyone, as far as I know, I have ZERO readers. Ha ha. But still, I think it's good for me to blog. I can get all my frustrations out & not keep them inside where they can fester into a cancer or a deadly aneursym.

That being said, I have been slightly depressed for the past month. I have realized that Bray isn't going to get to start preschool in August. He isn't going to be fully potty trained by his birthday in 2 months. Which means, unless I can find him a day care that will help with the potty training process, I can't start school until he is in school. It's going to take me years to complete college anyway, so the sooner I start, the sooner I get to graduate.

I also wish that we could find us a house & get out of this stupid apartment. Don't get me wrong, the apartment is great. It's big & very nice. But all the people that live here are stuck up their own asses. When I take Bray to the swimming pool, all these women who are there sun bathing act like it's such a terrible thing that I dare bring my son to splash his feet in the pool while they are sunbathing.(nowhere near them that is, he wont even get in the pool) The bug guy lies on us to the landlord, & after seeing our rabbit 500000000000 times before this past wednesday, the landlord decides to tell us that we have to pay $500 to keep a rabbit....in a cage....in the house. Gee Mr. Landlord man, Thanks for telling us that MONTHS ago when we first got the bunny. Now we're all attached to him & we're not going to give him away. You are a jerk off of the classic variety.

I do want to apologize, I am not trying to get a pity party, or sound all *emo* as some people put it. I am just very stressed & frustrated. If it's not one thing that stresses me out, it's another. Fortunately, I will have somewhat of a break in a little over a week. My birthday is the 21st, & since that is on a Monday, we are celebrating it the weekend before. So I'm getting my first tattoo, my nose pierced, going out to eat with my best friends...& Chase of course. & then, we are all going to Lake Winnie in Chattanooga. It's gonna be great. Me & Chase have a baby sitter, & have the whole weekend to have a kid-free blast!! So I'm thinking on Sunday, it'll just be the 2 of us. =) It'll be like we're dating again. I can't wait.

Explanations...

Not that I have any readers for my blog...It's ok. I accept it....But I have not really been in the mood to blog this past week or so. First off...a high school friend of mine * his brother died. They were in a horrible car wreck where the car flipped 4 or 5 times & they were thrown from the car. If they'd been wearing their seatbelts, they would probably still be alive. My friend Adam was 20...his brother Andrew was 17. They both wore the #72 on our high school football team. Adam had a 2 or 3 year old son.

On top of that, my mom went into the hospital Tuesday. She had to have a partial hysterectomy. She had her uterus & one of her ovaries taken out. & she had to have her bladder tacked up where it's supposed to be. She's doing good, but she's hurting pretty bad. She's on morphine tablets & should get to come home sometime today. Gonna try to go see her tomorrow or sunday.

I found out yesterday ANOTHER friend of mine died. Eric was 19 or 20. He has a very young son. not even a year old yet if i'm not mistaken. He was riding a dirt bike around at 1 in the morning & got hit by a pickup truck.

I'm kinda tired of losing people I know. I've become almost numb to it, which makes me come across as a cold-hearted bitch. But really, it's just so exausting to get so upset over it over & over again. & I also dont say that they're in a better place. I don't know that. I don't know if people REALLY believed in God when they died.

To everyone I have know that has died, May you rest in peace. I love you...where ever you may be...

Bobby Lee Huff
Hershel Privitt
Molly Nelson
Adam Hughes
Andrew Hughes
Eric Veal
James Dalton

It's random tuesday people!!!

Technically, it's only Tuesday for about 10 more minutes, but I have been kinda busy today. Better late than never I guess. At any rate...let us get on with the random, shall we??

I hate when I wash towels, & I put them in the dryer for a full drying cycle, & when the dryer stops, they are still damp. =( That happened today.

Why is the majority of the buttons I have in my button jar this really fugly brown color? Why is the button industry so stingy with the pretty buttons? I promise I'll use them wisely, so quit hogging them.

I just want to point out one little fact. I have lived in Tennessee my whole life, & I moved to Alabama last October. When all my friends & family found out about this, they made all the jokes that I have heard about Alabama my ENTIRE life. Rednecks, cousin on cousin action, REALLY bad southern accents...but you know what?? Since I have lived here, I have not seen one redneck, not 5 headed kids due to incest, or heard one person call it Alabam-ER. That's something I cannot say about Tennessee. Take that all you teasers...HA HA HA!

Kool-aid singles have got to be the best thing EVER.

Also...my little sister Mia is pretty much the cutest thing ever. She wore my sunglasses on mother's day long enough for me to take a picture....

Precious much????

Also...I took a picture with my mommy...She's awesome too...

Like my photo editing??? I used piknik.com
You can use most of it for free.

Red Crayon + White Walls= >=(

Dear Bray,

While I am SO incredibly happy that you have a love for creating......

I would REALLY appreciate it if you didn't put your creations all over the walls of our apartment.

I spent HOURS scrubbing this off & now, our walls still have a reddish orange tint to them.

So next time you get the urge to color...find one of your MILLIONS of coloring books....

You're SUPPOSED to color in them, not on the wall.

You're stressing me out with your constant wall art. I don't think that Mr. Clean can produce enough Magic Erasers to clean all your drawings up. And the landlord is an idiot for painting the apartments here with the cheap paint that rubs off when you clean it.

Needless to say, I had a TON of fun cleaning this all up. >=(

In Anticipation Of Mother's Day

Oh, my dear child...I love him so much. The minute he came into this world, I fell for him. It is a strange feeling, having your heart OUTSIDE your body. But it's a wonderful feeling.

So what does it mean?? To be a mother. Hmmm. Well, first off, it means that the life you live is no longer for yourself; some women have some difficulty grasping this, but for me it was the easiest thing I've ever done. Your whole life changes.

At first, it's the pregnancy. If you drink or smoke (I never did), that's the first huge thing you change...(or SHOULD change rather...again, some people don't. Shame on them.) Your body changes so much, & you have this bond with this child that you have never met. But already, you love them. You would ALREADY die for them. You begin to change everything around in preparation for this child.

Then comes the big moment: Having the baby...becoming a mother. It is a very interesting time for the soon to be mother. You're poked, prodded, your lady parts are exposed to scores of strangers. In my case, having a C-section, I was shaved by a very manly women & then wheeled into the O.R., where I laid half naked infront what seemed like 50 people that we're just standing around. If it wasn't for the massive amount of pain killers,I would have probably been embarrassed. Yet, we women endure all of this. The pain, the *exposure*, the aftershock of the embarrassment. We take all of it, because we get our child in the end.

That beautiful baby. The first time you seem them, hold them, smell them. Words cannot touch on those first moments. It's the closest I've ever felt to God in my life. This child wasn't here a moment ago, & now, I have no recollection of my life before they came. It's amazing. You anticipate so many moments that you will have with your baby over the years. Their first steps, first words, first tooth, birthdays, all the wonderful things. And, if you are like me, you will cry.

Right now, I am in the toddler-almost preschool age with my son. I have had most of the moments that I imagined with him. We still have a lot of firsts to go though. And with the baby years mostly behind us with him, I realize that I miss them so much. But I love the child that he has turned out to be. Yes...in spite of the tantrums, coloring on the walls, yelling, slamming doors, & only wanting to eat apples and chicken nuggets...& probably a millon other things that I'm to tired to list right now....I think that he is the best son that a mom could ask for. Because aside from all the stressful things that he puts me through, I know that when I tuck him into bed that night...you will hug me, kiss me, and say in that sweet voice of his:

*I love you Mommy, Goodnight & Sweet Dreams.*

And that sentence alone, the one I hear everynight, brings a tear to my eye. I would lay my own life down for my son. I would kill, steal, lie, & even die for him. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, & in my opinion, he saved my life. & I hope that when he is grown, he is half as proud of me as I am of him.

Bordom. =/

My son is in the bedroom watching NickJr. Chase is zombied out in fromt of the tv playing Call of Duty Modern Warfare, & I'm sitting here bored as hell. So I guess you, poor little blog, get to hear all the random crap that goes through my head. Aren't you the lucky one?? =)



As I said yesterday, the pool has opened up for the season. (yay!!) & we went back today. Somehow, I managed to get sunburned on my left side...yes, ONLY my left side. Considerig the fact that the sun was directly above me, & that I didn't expose one side of my body more than the other, I am shocked. I hope that this will be like every other sunburn I've ever gotten & be nice & tan by morning. *fingers crossed*



Chupathingy The Mexican Lizard...=)



I should probably make a list of all the house work that I need to do tomorrow. I'm gonna try to get up early & clean so I don't have to miss out on pool time. (maybe I'll get the other half burned...make it even...)



The landlord was out at the pool today, & he was tanning. He literally laid out for like an hour, & then he jumped in. I always think that it's funny when a man lays out. I know that it's common, but still...it makes the 12 year old in me laugh. The Hungarian/Romanian women was out there too, (I can never remember which country she is actually from.) We all ended up talking about places we wanted to go to, & since I have never been on vacation, my list was a long one. =(
The landlord has been everywhere apparently. Ireland (my dream vacation), Germany, Italy,
basically everywhere that I've dreamed of going...he's been. Damn him.

I forgot to take my allergy meds today; haven't done that in a LONG time. Unfortunately, I didn't realize this until I was in the pool & Bray was having a grand ol' time splashing on the steps. Well, needless to say, I didn't tear the 3 year old away for the 5 minutes it would've taken for me to walk back to the apartment to take it. I would rather suffer my chronic & debilitating allergies than to rip him away from a rare moment of childhood stimulation that didn't involve a television. What ever happened to playing pretend anyway?? He does, actually, play by himself a lot. But he seems to want NickJr., or as he knows it, Noggin.

I don't know why they would just up & change it on him like that. It used to be : NickJr. presents Noggin!!! Now they've just dropped the Noggin title all together, & I don't like it. But I digress....

What was I talking about?? Ah, yes...allergies. Well, I finally took my allergy pill at about 6 p.m. That's when I realized that my neck was breaking out into hives. Hives are ALWAYS fun. They're gone, for the most part, now. Still kinda itchy, but not terrible. I wonder what allergy cause them this time tho. I wasn't around any cats. & there are no horses here. Pollen usually doesn't break me out. My luck, they are probably getting worse. I haven't gotten my allergy shots since October. (stupid alabama medicare)

*sigh* I guess I should go to sleep now. Especially if I plan on getting up early & cleaning....

My First Random Tuesday Thoughts!!!!

Ok, this is my first RTT. (incase you didn't get that from the title) & so far, I has been a very random week, & with all the thoughts that go through my head, I shouldn't have a problem with random-ness. Anyway...here we go...

You ever grab your phone the SECOND before it goes off?? That has happened to me a lot this week. The feeling that goes with that happening more than once is amazing. You know...that feeling of ESP?? Yeah...that's an amazing feeling.

We watched some scary movies over the weekend, & I don't really get SCARED, but after we go to bed, I get really paranoid. Sometimes when I get up in the middle of the night, & I see all the weird shadows, I get freaked out. My head says: "It COULD be the vacuum, BUUUT it could be a very short & awkwardly shaped ax murderer..."

I'm convinced that no REAL person talks to their dog or cat like the people in the pet food commercials.

There's a mini golf club on my porch, & I have no idea where it came from. We don't golf.

I was chatting with my gay friend on Facebook last night, & I had my Ipod on shuffle. All of a sudden, "I Kissed A Girl" came on & I got the hilarious image of him singing it. But then I got to thinking about it, a gay man CAN sing that song legitimatly. & that made me laugh.

I know that the bowl that I put in the microwave last night said *Not Microwave Safe* ( thanks to the ol man for pointing that out). But seriously, what could POSSIBLY happen?!?!? I can never find a microwave safe plastic bowl at the store, & it's not like I'm gonna return them to the store either. (I know that I CAN return them, but I feel weird returning them without a valid excuse. What am I gonna tell them?? They don't fit isn't an option. ) So unless putting them in the microwave is gonna set off an A-bomb like explosion...in the microwave they go...

Potty training is still going no where. That's stressful.

& the pool has finally opened up for the season. I'm going to go swim. Have a very random tuesday everyone!!!

Baby Fever. *sigh*

I don't think that I've mentioned this on here yet, but I have just recently started paying attention to my poor little blog. I am wanting to have another baby. Yes, yes, yes, I know that I said after I had my son that I didn't want anymore children. & for a while, I didn't. And after all these feelings that I was pushing off to the side, all the baby pictures that I see people posting o Facebook that make my heart hurt, & feeling that ache to hold a small, precious little baby in my arms once again after seeing TONS of fresh babies all over when I go to the grocery store, thie final sign finally came for me: My doctor in Tennessee had messed up on my perscription for my birth control shot & I couldn't get them to fix it. They had written me 11 refills for a shot I only take once every 3 months, but they had somehow made it expire in December with 9 refills still on the script. I no longer have insurance. When we moved to Alabama I lost my TennCare. I, for some reason, do not qualify for insurance down here. (Gay, I know.) The doctor said she could write me another script, but I would have to come in to the office in Tennessee (about an hour away) for a pap, & with no insurance, I would have to pay for the appointment, the exam, & then the shot itself. No thank you. So I finally decided that I will finally grow a pair, & tell Chase that I want another baby.

It went surprisingly well. I thought he would yell, scream, thrash about like a fish out of water. But he just looked at me & said: Ok.

Needless to say, this left me in a state of shock. All these years, he was more stubborn than I was. NO MORE BABIES. All of a sudden he just says ok??? Seriously, where is my boyfriend & what have you done to him? Not that I am upset about his answer. It was what I was hoping to hear, Just not what I was expecting to hear. Though, upon further discussion about it, he doesn't want to have one right away. I, on the other hand, can't wait. So I guess you could say, we aren't actually trying, but we aren't preventing either.

I keep having dreams about babies. & I'm not sure if that's normal when you catch this baby fever that I just cannot get rid of. These dreams go from very normal, almost real feeling dreams, to crazy, off the wall, oh my god...what is going on inside my head, dreams. 'm hoping that once we do concieve, that these dreams will go away.

We Got A Bunny!!!!

Ok, I cannot believe that I haven't posted this yet. We got a baby bunny rabbit April 12th. I remember the exact date because it was the day before Chase's birthday.

Anywho, I named him Atticus. Yes, for those of you who are well read, I named him after the father from To Kill A Mockingbird. He is such a good little bunny. He's already so much bigger than whne we first got him. He's a mixed breed, so i don't know exactly how big he's gonna get. He has some dwarf rabbit in him, but the breeder that I talked to couldn't say for sure what else he had in him without actually seeing him. ( I had emailed her some pictures.)

He now does this thing with his ears that Chase calls "getting reception". He keeps one straight up & the other flopped down. & I have learned that rabbits, like people, have different likes & dislikes. My aunt, upon learning I was getting Atticus, was full of valuable information on how to care for him & what kinds of foods they love. She had rabbits her whole life & had one for almost 10 years. She had menitoned her rabbits love for bananas, & I was so excited to get to the store & get him some bananas. Well, he loved apples, loved carrots, & LOVE LOVE LOVED lettuce. But bananas??? He HATED them!!! He took a few bites of it & then wouldn't go near it again. & when I had tried to make him take another taste, he would shake his head in such a way that he seemed to be saying to me: "GET THAT THING AWAY FROM ME!!!!!"

As with any new pet, you want to get all this stuff for them. & after we got is settled in to his cage & used to his surroundings, I eagerly jumped onto PetSmart.com & ordered him a Timothy Hay Tunnel, which is basically just a tunnel made out of dried grass. He climbs all over it & chews it up & it just makes him a happy wittle wabbit. BUT, I also purchased a rabbit harness. Which is nothing but a vest for a rabbit that you can attach a leash to. (yes, bunnies need walks & exercise too!) Well, the website had 2 sizes. Small & large. The small was listed as being for rats, small guinea pigs...etc. (I am still wondering why anyone would want to take a rat for a walk...that just doesn't make sense to me...) & the large was said to be for rabbits. So, of course, I buy the large. Atticus is way bigger than a rat. & he IS indeed a rabbit. They had 2 color options listed: dark blue, & hunter green. They say to let them pick the color for you. & when the harness comes in, I'm am so excited to let him hop around outside. Well, guess what?? The harness is PINK & LIME GREEN (which was NOT a color option & makes me unhappy cuz he is a BOY bunny) AND it is too big. This harness could fit a laborador puppy...& Atticus is no where near that big. So I am pretty much playing a waiting game right now. Waiting for him to grow, or waiting until I can actually get to a petsmart & buying the thing myself.

Chase may be getting a new job...with equals: We may be moving AGAIN.

So Chase has been looking into this new job, which is back in Chattanooga. (where we basically moved from back in October....) & it's a good job, with better pay than he's getting now. But there are some issues with it that I just can't seem to let my mind forget.

1. If he gets the job, we would have to move back to Chattanooga. Which in itself, doesn't bother me THAT much. I would be closer to my friends & family. But I HATE moving. & we would...once again, be living close to HIS parents. Don't get me wrong, I REALLY do love my in-laws. But they are those types of people who are best loved from a distance. If you're around them too long, they become very irritating. Like sandpaper towels would be....just as an example. Ha ha. But seriously....I do love them to death.

2. Depending on what job position he gets, he would either have to go to training for 6 weeks ( for a regular mechanic position) OOOOR, 6 MONTHS. ( That would be for a managment postition) The 6 week one wouldn't be too bad. He would be home on the weekends, & nothing would REALLY change that much. If he gets the management position (& let's face it, it's better paying & much less stressful) we would have to move where ever they decided to send him to school for the 6 months, & then when he got done, move to where he was ACTUALLY working. & that SUCKS.

3. I'm afraid that all this moving is gonna mess with Brasden. He's been moving from place to place since he was about 1 1/2 years old. Not to mention that he's almost school age & it is very difficult for a younger child to catch up on work in school when they move from one school to another.

I should be happy that he's looking into this great job opportunity. But I just keep thinking about all this stuff. I should be being a supportive, loving partner, encouraging him & cheering him on in his quest to find a job that makes him truely happy. BUT, I'm worried about MOVING. I don't know why it's such a big deal. I mean, the whole thing with it affecting Bray is something to think about. But I should still be thinking positive. This could possibly be a great thing for all of us. And ANOTHER thing I should be thinking about: There is not guarantee that he will get this job. He hasn't even put in an application yet. He has sent his resume, & talked to a few people, but that's as far as it has gotten right now. I could be completely jumping the gun with all these emotions. As a women, though, I am entitled to such insane emotional thoughts. Whether they are irrational or not.

Insomnia....

Well, once again, here I am. It's almost 1 in the morning & I can't sleep. I'm exausted. Absolutely EXAUSTED, & I just cannot get to sleep. I am either to hot or to cold. Chase is taking up to much of the bed, or I'm worried that I'M taking up to much of the bed & he wont get a good night sleep & be really tired at work because of my bed hogging. (Crazy, I know....) So I took a shower, in the hopes that the hot water would make me drowsy, but that didn't work either.

So here I am...sitting on the couch, watching an episode of Dr. G: Medical Examiner that I had recorded on the DVR. I'm probably gonna fix me some Camomile tea & see if that helps. But as always, I probably won't fall asleep until after 2. If I had insurance, I would go to the doctor & see if there's an actual problem, or if this is just where I've gone off my birth control shot. But I can't get insurance right now. (that's a WHOLE other post...ugh)

Maybe I should try buying some Tylenol PM & see if that helps. Though, I am not to keen on Tylenol, it's bad for your liver. & taking it regularly can only worsen those odds of liver failure. MaybeI'm just being paranoid about it though. I mean, tons of things are bad for us, but we continue to use them. Like caffeine, I am completely addicted to it. I wish I wasn't. God knows what it's doing to my insides. Ha ha. Maybe if I cut down on it the insomina will go away. I don't know. Without it I get terrible headaches, so cutting it out completely just isn't an option right now. I do know that sitting here listening to the beginning music of Sleepless in Seattle playing in the background & the steady typing on my laptop isn't helping me fall asleep any faster.(haha....what a time for that movie to come on. With me blogging about BEING sleepless....I just go caught on to the full irony of that.)

At this point, I think that I shall remove myself from this wretched thing called the internet for the night. Maybe breaking it's spell on me for the night will help aid my sleep. I will fix myself some tea, & then head to bed. If all else fails, I have about 400000000 books on my nightstand that will preoccupy me until the sandman finally comes to my town...

Goodnight all. May you all have pleasent dreams.....

Potty Training Stresses....

So, I have been trying to potty train my son for almost 6 months, & have officially gotten NOWHERE!!!!! He will now sit on the potty, but do nothing else. I have tried everything: bribing with stickers, toy balls, m&m candies, & small toys. I even tried the "magic potty trick"; it's where you put some blue food coloring into the toilet water & when he pees it, it turns green...like "magic". Well, that just distracted him & he wouldn't even sit on the potty. UGH! The other day, he came to me & told me he had to pee pee, so I took him to the bathroom & decided that he was gonna sit on the potty until he went. I knew he had to go, he even told me he had to to, so he was gonna sit there until he went!!!

Cut to an hour later....

We've been sitting on the potty the whole time. I've told him 4000000000000 times, "If you pee pee on the potty, you can have the Brobee sticker!!" (Brobee from Yo Gabba Gabba that is...one of his favorite shows.) Even offered him one of his Blue's Clues stickers ( Blue's Clues IS his favorite show). Held his hand, read him books, & even got my laptop so he could listen to Elmo's Potty Time songs. & when I had finally had enough, & he just would NOT stay on the potty, I got him down, put some pull ups on him, & then went to finish my dinner.

Cut to about 3 minutes later....(yes....ONLY 3 minutes later...)

He walks into the living room, & he has completely filled his pull-ups!!!!!! He had held it in the entire time we were it the bathroom. Through all my encouragements, bribes, & pleas....he held it the WHOLE TIME. I'm still so stressed & astonished about this, that tears should be streaming down my face.

He's never been a difficult child. He slept through the night fairly early on, stopped taking his pacifier on his own, threw dont the bottle by himself, & even told me when he didn't want to use the high chair anymore. But this whole potty training thing??? I think it will be the death of me. If he is not potty trained by his 4th birthday (at the end of August) then he wont be able to go to preschool. I love being a stay-at-home mommy. I wouldn't trade it for the world. But I was so looking forward to him starting school because that's when I start school as well. I never thought I would put college as long as I have. I know I'm not gonna like the experience, & that's why I want to just go ahead & get it over with. And this is why I'm relying on him getting potty trained so much. He will start his school life, & I will start mine.

Bray's Little Monster.

Bray & monster making the "RAWR" Face.
Monster trying to "blend in" in the bathroom. He wasn't as sneaky as he thought...

My son has been in a monster kick since he was introduced to the movie Monster's Inc., & as I was sitting at my sewing table trying to figure out what to do with all this scrap fabric he walks up to me & says he wants a monster. WHAT LUCK!!! What luck that at the very moment I'm about to go sit back down in front of the tv my 3 year old gives me motivation!! & out of that request for a monster this little critter was born! I'm pretty sure that this is, by far, my favorite stuffie that I've made to date. =D I've always been a little insecure about making stuffies because in the past they haven't turned out as well. But practice makes perfect & I am now going to try to start making them more often.

In lonely fields
Where willows weep,
I feel at home.
I lay; I sleep.

And as I sleep
I drift away.
I dream the things
I long to say.

The beautiful trees,
The stars in the sky,
I beg them not to pass me by.

As everyone ages
And spring turns to fall,
I lie & wait.
I watch it all.

Time it stops for no single being.
But I wish it would slow down.

So I just sit here
With the willows,
And all of us will frown.

-Britni-